Today,
I sit down to remember,
All the loves that never germinated,
And those that were terminated,
I remember the efforts in futility,
Despising the presentation with humility,
I remember the days you to pretended to play along,
And you were never mine all along,
I remember watching the stars with you,
Planning the future we’ll never have together,
I remember cascading my face for you,
Cause I can never be the beautiful girl you wanted,
I remember how you used lie, calling me beautiful to my face,
And telling your friends how slutty I was,
I remember having to borrow money from my friends,
To buy the skimpies you want and being hungry for days,
I remember how I used to encourage your dreams,
And you never bothered "How can I have dream even?"
I remember how stupid I was then,
Aborting my dreams to save yours,

I remember the Valentine you said you were working, can’t make it,
Yet cruising the seas with your side chicks,
I remember my mom telling me never to visit a man alone,
And then, I forfeited it just to be with you,
I remember how you used to make me feel,
When I can’t get you the money you asked,
I remember how intimidated I used to be,
When you friends wonder which dungeon you found me,
I remember being extremely foolish,
For coming back to you all those times,
I remember how you coaxed me into taking alcohol that night,
Knowing fully any little quantity, I’ll be intoxicated,
I remember telling you I was a minor,
And you said "sex is for majors and minors"
I remember asking you to use protection,
But you said who licks sweet inside nylon,

I remember saying I wasn’t emotionally ready,
But you had your way any way,
I remember you releasing my nudes of that night,
Destroying me and everything I could think off,
I remember the look on the doctor’s face,
Telling me I was HIV positive,
I remember reaching out to you I was pregnant,
You denying saying sluts like me try to push babies on you,
I remember the disappointment on my parents faces,
Claiming I was the devil sent to destroy their home,

I remember the night I committed suicide,
There was no one i could run to,
Though I may be dead now,
My memory of you all lingers,
I remember .